I’ve always been terrified of dying since I’ve always been in a tug of war with God. When I was younger, I would stay awake at night for hours because somehow, my childish mind believed I’d never see the light of day again if I didn’t stay awake.
Of course, that foolish idea flew out of my head when I got older, but I still dreamed of hell fire. I was still terrified of dying and whenever I dreamt about the second coming of Christ, my salvation was always in question.
I’d say a million prayers afterwards, but I always fell right back into sin. I was exhausted from the to and fro and I yearned to be on solid ground.
As I got older, my desire to draw closer to God also grew. I felt lost without him and I knew I had to accept him as my Lord and Saviour. I also knew that it was something I had to do sooner, rather than later.
After gambling with my life for what seemed like forever, I finally decided to turn away from the world and its pleasures. I walked away from Carnival, something I absolutely adored, I parted with some of my favourite songs and traditions and I also decided to say goodbye to certain social media platforms. That’s the least of it; I gave up so much more.
I watched as the world moved on without me and at times, I truly wanted to cave in and run back to what I once loved.
It almost seemed as if God was asking me to give up everything and deep down inside, I was seething. Thankfully, I believe God has a better plan for me so I allowed him to take full control of my life.
You see, one can acquire the “best” in life: mansions, cars, jewellery, designer clothing and tons and tons of money, but if God is not a part of that plan, in the end, it will only lead to destruction. And I was certainly on my way there.
I changed gears, switched lanes and with God at my side, I plan on changing my entire life. I pray that you do too. I know that some persons might reject this message, but I hope that one day you’ll accept Christ wholeheartedly. He loves us all and wants nothing but the best for us. Remember, it’s better to live a life that is pleasing to God rather than doing the opposite, only to discover that hell is oh so real in the end.
I’ll leave you with this scripture: “Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.” – James 1:12
Have a wonderful weekend, do take care.
P.S. Please keep me in your prayers.