“Life is a work in progress that never is complete. We learn a different lesson from each experience we meet.” Tom Krause
As a part of my daily devotions, I routinely search my heart for any un-serving emotions, feelings, or thoughts I may be holding onto. It is my opportunity to check-in and bring awareness to how I am feeling and to release and let go of any energies that may be weighing me down.
This morning was no exception. I checked in and realized that there was in fact something affecting my emotional space. I then allowed myself to become curious as to the underlying energies behind what was consuming my focus. What I found was nothing I could have ever imagined.
One important lesson I’ve learnt since practising to tune into myself and being more self-aware is, 99 percent of the time, what I think the issue is, isn’t the real issue and by allowing myself to dig deeper and to excavate, the true issue inevitably reveals itself.
This morning’s excavation showed that I had a lingering belief regarding my past choices. I felt that I had made several bad choices and mistakes in my life and I was carrying around the associated guilt and unforgiveness for myself.
This was a big one. I can honestly say that I have never knowingly processed these thoughts before. Of course, I remember telling myself at different times that I should have probably made a different choice and instead chose to give my attention to the lessons the situations presented. However, unknowingly to me, I was carrying around this burdensome guilt.
This old programming was playing itself out, affecting my relationships, experiences, the way I was showing up and the way I was seeing myself.
In that moment, however, I decided to change the narrative and openly welcome the golden opportunity to face the un-serving belief and associated feelings. I then willingly allowed myself to release them and let them go.
I am always amazed by the power of releasing and letting go. It has the immense power to bring clarity, truth, lightness, and peace. No longer do I feel burdened by my past choices. Now, I am able to be grateful and thankful for them because I am able to clearly see how each and every choice led me to where I am now.
The experience also re-enforced the importance of self-reflection and self-awareness. It also reminded me that we are all continuous works in progress, always healing, improving, growing and expanding.